pondering , life...im thinking of me and the world.
Id like to wish the world and everyone in it the very best at everything they do and want to achieve...i hope too that everyones wildest dreams comes true, i wish everyone every happiness..
if it hasnt happend yet, "wish upon a star" mickey mouse did...

thats not said as a joke or lightly the disney film came to mind.. things like that happen to me... often..
its like i have tv playing in my head..

the world had nothing and never will have anything to fear from me.
i havent it in me. i always tried to do the opposite.
which is why ive always said im best alone.....happiest..
if i can,t do good i wouldnt do anything at all.
thats it really. my mind has to be turned elsewhere . blinkers.

the world and everyone in it will continue to scare me so i,ll just ignore all of it till i,m well.
my kitchens cosy.

suppose i am rock i am an island and its as i said no one ever got me.
the lass who couldnt hack life in the present ... no voice cos i just dare,nt speak to people..
...sadly she belonged in the 16th century.

if anything happens to me then this blog as i said 2 weeks ago will be my only epitaph..
and what will it be ? a few witterings of some one not well..and a few daft poems and stories.. a few bits on draft saying words of love and wisdom to good friends. ...

and people of the world... never fail to amaze me id stand beside innocent people,
to the death..
and when everyone walks out leaving you all alone you still have one person left who will never leave ... yourself.
as i toddle off up the stairs.


nothing new there and i dont mind, im used to it..its what i wanted i,m no use to anyone with no energy..
the top of the bed is and always has been ..base camp to me..

my motto is, when planning.. always remember to make allowances for your heart.
the heart .. speaks.. it has its own universal language.
i trust mine its the only thing i do trust ...
thats it really..

except to say i always make sure love is at the heart of everything.
there are people in the world i love more than life itself....
not just people, we can love animals, flowers, trees ,nature..
all the good stuff.... makes the world go round..

so really i make sure throughout life regardless ive tried to love everyone,
except the bad people of course.. then theres a slim chance it may come back to you.. the boomerang effect ,
if not well its best to keep it up..never give up hope.
im going through deleting now.