before i put out the washing...over the last few months for the first time in my life ive looked ahead into the future and saw nothing.....a blank page...
that is good...
nothing is mapped out for me....i won,t have to be doing this anymore..
when you know whats coming life can become boring..especially if its a struggle..
it proves that i,m optimistic.. it,s like waiting for xmas .. you've no idea what santa claus is bringing you.. its a surprise..

that's what its going to be like for me when ive my health back.. as i don't know what its like to be well.. 15 years ago it started..